My life is a mess now...damn...after talking to Jo over the phone I realized just how fast time flies....naknam we are about to be in the mid 20's!!!!!!...I've always been optimistic in every thing that I do pero being such doesn't excuse me from thinking about all the nega in my life. Cguro nga bad thing about being a positive thinker is you tend to neglect/refuse/ignore the problems around you...in the end you'll just be surprised to realize how bad and tough life can really be. It seems all the aspects in my life are in bad shape...
*** family -after losing my grandma
*** career -damn, no words can express how depressing it is to enjoy a work that can't compensate me well
*** lovelife - eric is so mad for something that I wish I could do anything just to prove how much I love him and I can't afford to lose him. He is not even talking to me...


Call me pessimistic now, but I don't see any reason why I should be enjoying life...so sad...If only things would turn out just the way we want them to be. Is it too late for someone who's about to be 25 this year to make things happen?...I'm not getting any younger and I want to have a life worth living. How could that be if everytime I try to enjoy and appreciate small things, the bigger thing seems to be so tough to handle. I think so much time is needed for me to regain myself...

"Why should I bring happiness to those I loathe by obliterating myself, when I can make them miserable just by existing?"


----by Jessica Zafra....


Nga naman...makes sense ayt?...

Hey you know what I just did? I just tore my contact lens into a million pieces...so long mah so-called buddy!!! Damn you...weird huh? Well...it made me suffer for a couple of days...I tried to make 'tiis' of all the pains it brought me....because of the idea that I am so much dependent on wearing lens...Tada!!!! u are all done my dear lens....Finally, my eyes will get all the rest they deserve...ehemmm....some people can actually relate on this entry if read in between lines....

Anyhow, all of us deserves naman to be at peace and free from whatever that could cause pain and troubles. I thought I could not survive a day with my lens but look at me now...being as nerdy nerd as ever with eyeglasses...at least I feel much more comfortable now....


Someday I'll be wearing my glasses again but not now...my eyes are still hurting....


someday...but not now....


If someday someone or something will hurt me....I'll read this blog again on being hurt and getting even...hahaha!!! bitchy me...:)