I have received an email message today that brought me to write a blog...
"I wish you could see yourself through my eyes because that's when you'll understand the true meaning of unconditional love"
...What have i gotten myself into?I'm so fucked up thinking and reflecting on many things.
It all started here at Accenture. I met someone i really have a crush on. Actually it was no big deal util he started texting and calling me. That was when things got so complicated. Of all people to like me, why does it have to be him? Funny how God makes things work. Is this his way of testing my relationship with Eric? or this is the right time for him to give me the one he made for me?
I learned my lesson now, never ever get yourself involved if you don't know how to get out! I promised Eric before that i will remain faithful to him. I never thought that a simple infatuation would lead to something so complicated.
I admit i'm in the middle of disaster. I honestly don't know what will happen next. I want to hold on to what seem so perfect relationship and yet i want to give chance to this new feeling i have for the other. As much as i wanted to hurt nobody, i know i would have to hurt someone and myself whatever path i'll take.

It has been such a long time! I miss everything about blogging! I've wathced movies, read books by Dan Brown, and met a lot of people in my new working environment.
A lot of things to blog about- Currently, i am being trained by Accenture. So most of the time, i find myself getting as much sleep as i can. I must admit i don't have time to blog anymore...but i cannot let some things pass by without blogging it.
I have 1 month to prepare for our 4th anniversarry. Most people would probably feel excited if they are in my position. Honestly, i'm more scared than excited. I have this fear of celebrating 4th anniversarry because the last relationship i had lasted exactly 4 years.
I am experiencing same scenario now. Same feelings, same reasons why i broke up with my ex...hayyyyyy... I'm trying very hard coz i've been here before and i know better what to do now.
Nahhh...Easier said than done. I wish i have all the answers, so i won't have any regrets. But i don't, so i'll just let my heart decide.
.....I'm in this dillema again, what am i to do?