I have a boring lay-out...(knock...knock..knock to the heart of jo)...

Recently I had a fight with my sis..I was so hurt...imagine giving ur full trust to someone then all of a sudden something will pop up and shatter everything. Another incident of how love is so powerful... controlling one's intelligence and logic..kainis lng....she was so judgemental of me. Had I known earlier, things could have been different. All along I thought she knows me too well...hindi pla. Nkakatakot lng magbigay ulit ng trust I might get hurt again.

Damn...I was so freaking busy the whole month to the point where I couldn't even squeeze my blogging obligations...sobra talaga...andame ko n sana na blog but then...busy tlaga...

Things I could have written here for the month of august:

1. How lousy mossimo shirts are nowadays...di naman ganun ang quality nla dati ah? the designs are not that good not to mention kung gaano kanipis ang tela...kainis lng...not worth the money...

2. The sandals I bought at cinderella na may kaparehas sa baclaran....whatthefuck diba???? Bad trip tlaga...

3. 24 ngayon, monthsarry namen...no plans of gimmicks...bka novena at baclaran lng and watch dvd sa house.

4. the weird feeling of taking medications everyday....feel so weak...

5. pati movies...I haven't watched any good movies this month....

6. Played billiards only once this month...

have an idea how freaking busy I am this month??non sense entry......

Just after I ate my breakfast at 2pm, I went to sit down with my mom to watch the noontime show. She was then reading Philippine star. She handed me an article, asking me to read it aloud. I thought it was just some current issues and wanted to tackle about it. But then as I read the first line I blurted out loud..."Ayoko na...alam ko na to...Iiyak lng ako" Just before I finished the sentence tears went falling down my cheeks. I have always been hiding my tears in front of my mom because I might pass on the deppression on her. As much as possible, no crying in front of my mom with regards to a very sensitive issue...overcoming grief...lost of someone loved. I might as well share the whole poem so u know what I'm talking about.....

A lesson in grieving
- Susan Reyes-

Go ahead and cry, You have just lost someone very dear
Now life will never be the same
No longer there to talk to, laugh with, and simply be with
He is gone...so final...you feel empty
Ofcourse you are sadf and you want to cry

Go ahead and cry, because it is okay to allow
Yourself to feel what you feel
Your tears will cleanse the bitterness your soul feels
One day there will be room for light and grace

Go ahead and cry, be angry if you must.
Scream your pain to the world, shout and cry until you tire
Now, pray to for comfort and peace
Pray until you fall asleep

Go ahead and cry, it is nothing to be ashamed of.
Take pause. Let the tears flow
Should your chest feel tight
from the pain breathe slowly, deeply, feel your lungs with air
Like a mantra, repeat to yourself "this too shall pass."
I promise you, it does.

Go ahead and cry, you will find the pain eases with time,
your natural ally. Begin to remember the good times, the laughter
and the joy. You begin to heal, slowly, yes, but surely.
Then you start to feel him in your heart, alive, pulsating and vibrant.
This is now where he resides and belongs for eternity

so yes, it's all right, go ahead and cry.



I got to read the article when everybody eslse here was sleeping. Its just a simple poem anyway but for someone who just experienced a death of a loved one or a break up of relationship this would really matter. I'm glad I had the courage to finish up the poem because I learned something good here.... Its okay to cry, I should not be ashamed to show my emotions because time would let me realize the essence of learning to love and let go. I would be stronger, and let her live inside me...when that time comes I'll just have to smile and be happy.

Since I got so assed out the whole week, I had no time to blog...I just included here a message from micmac (the generous incoho guy who shared his pad with the kulit Incohos). I am in charge of the pictures but until now, haven't even uploaded any...

The party was one hell of a night...people were all so sober...kanya kanyang trip... can't wait to post the pix to show how bangag the people were....

In short, masaya. bonding time. Imagine people who were not that close to me when i was still in the office attended the party and made that event a bridge for communications and friendships. Miss you na guys...
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Guys,

I wanna thank you all for coming so fashionably late during sat's party especially alex. :-) Also worth mentioning are those who got lost despite the sketch map and instructions given yet still single-handedly reached my place without any help from GPS. (Global Positioning Satellite)

-Gen, Sheila, and Dulce for spending your last remaining paycheck on food and booze. :-)

-Anna for turning a year older coincidentally with the party and she herself being absent. :-)

-Victor, for braving the rough seas of commitment and didnt get a single scratch, clawmark, or fleshwound on his body for not telling his gf where he was or who he was with that night. :-)

-Gerry for playing every darn song in the universe but didnt ask for any talent fee except that he'd be given more booze than the others. :-)

-Sir X for dropping by with Mang willie and short-circuiting the PBX so we can start duking it out in starcraft. :-)

-Shiela and Merylle for being my angels as well as devils while watching a movie. :-)

-Yehlen and for not making me bring her water(good thing i ran out of distilled water) but instead made me fix her some iced tea. :-)

-Cathy for getting wasted and cleaning my place squeeky clean. (the wonders of alcohol I tell you.)

-John for drafting the sketch map for everybody to completely ignore.

-Audrey also for turning completely red literally for no apparent reason (alcohol? no. Blushing?hmm..maybe.:-)

-Jake, the dude, also for getting wasted but ironically was so behaved that night. (again, the wonders of alcohol in your system. )

-The X-incoho guys namely arjay&charlie, macky&chibom, bonnie&clyde, tom&gerry, etc... for still being part of the bunch.

-and last but not least, Ohj for getting so wasted he still doesnt know what happened after he slumbered and for teaching me how to cook, get this guys, FRIED TUNA SPREAD.

Here are some excerpts from that fateful night: (Feel free to add your own experience:)

OHj: dude *hick* gawa tayo ng tuna spread *hick* para sandwiches since and daming bread. *hick*
Micmac: Yeah sure man. I have mayo and tuna in the ref. I'll go get them while you slice some onions.
Ohj: Akong *hick* bbbbhala dude. where's the knife? oh here it is. (slices the onions) dude, ang purol naman ng knife mo. *hick*
Micmac: thats because your handling the knife the wrong way. ur supposed to hold it by the handle, not by the sharp side.
Ohj: ah ganon ba? *hick* hehe inaantok lang siguro ako. *hick* hikhikhik
Micmac: here's the tuna and mayo, ill step outside to check on the guys.
Ohj: no problem dude! (sautees the onions and tuna....)
Micmac: DUDE! WhaT THE F*%K! why are you frying the MAYOOO!!!!!!!!
Ohj: It wasnt me!

THe End

I'm counting my last days here at Incoho. What would resigning employees usually do on the last week of her stay?Take advantage of company's benefits? print as many files as possible? hmmm...gosh I'm so bad! I've got nothing left to do but to transfer mp3 files, save photos online, and do last non-stop browsing. By the time I'll be shifting careers to accenture, I might not be able to have such leeway anyway.

I posted some of my treasured moments here at incoho....
























There are still lots more...I've not included all costume parties, christmas parties, gimmicks, and getaways. A part of me is still sad leaving the company I've shared my life with for almost 2 years. But then life has to move on. People come and go. Only the true ones would stay...

I'm defintely moving on...and getting ready to open a new chapter....the accenture story.