I've been so hooked up at the world's most difficult riddle.Indeed, the puzzle requires extreme mental strengths. I have headaches and red eyes because of this, but everytime I pass through one stage everything is paid off. What a relief, try this without cheating. It's worth your time and effort.

http://deathball.net/notpron/

...currently bleeding my mind on the 11th stage.

As usual I'm so lazy to work, good thing Eric gave me a ride here even though he just got home from his office (very much appreciated, by).


La lng, just a thought....having a bad day?...or just a bad attitude?

I'm getting so impatient with life...first, my sister's arrival....second, my job applications...3rd, payday....I know it's a bad attitude..and I'm trying very hard to change it. I try to make the most out of each passing day. I try to appreciate the people and things around me rather than to complain on what I don't have... Now Im realizing that I love life because God gives me reasons to appreciate it. :)

Reminder: green tops should NEVER go with brown pants.Ofcourse, there can be an exemption if you're attending a costume party. ano ka...walking tree???then the big earings are your fruits?(panindigan ba daw?).....lolz :)....Here I go again....

I watched 'Nasaan ka man' of Claudine, Jericho, and Diether. It was a heavy drama that brought tears to my eyes. This is the third film that made me cry over a story. Okay, I admit it, 'brought tears' is an understatement. I don't know if it has the same impact as for the other viewers since I can relate to the story. Just before the movie ended, I was trying so hard to control my tears ( nakakahiya naman kasi diba?)that I was not paying much attention to the most touching lines. You might be wondering why the heck I'm crying over a story. Well, not only does it has a good twist but my memories when my tita died last summer came rushing back to me. I've not forgotten it, let's just say I'm in the process of healing when because of the plot of the film, everything was refreshed again. It's a sad and depressing movie, that even after you've watched it, you'll think about the whole story again. Truly brilliant in acting, direction, cinematography, theme and screenplay.

Ever wondered y is it always hard to be on the road when raining? Exaggerated ang pagkapuno ng mga public transports o kaya naman pag may dala kang car sobrang traffic? Any ideas? sabi nung officemate ko kasi daw when its raining, people are no longer walking on the streets kaya napupuno ung mga jeeps and buses. hindi ren...Is it because the roads are slippery that's why vehicles are slowing down...makes sense....but man, we are in the city..regardless if its raining or not, there are a lot of stop overs. So what could be the reason for the bumper to bumper traffic? Worse, its a friday night....Damn, from greenbelt to paseo, it took us 45 minutes to get to my office.

Sa house naman, my father resigned from work because he had an argument with the boss.At first thought, it's not that easy to be a dollar-earner without being nostalgic at all. Can't blame him, ako ren naman kating-kati n ako magresign dahil sa a*s**** boss. Amidst all these, my mother doesn't seem to be bothered at all. and I'm proud of her, such a strong person, the things that she went through(from the downfall of the multi-million business to her sickness, ate's unplanned pregnancy, and her dearest sister's sudden death) she is indeed an exceptional fighter. Okay lng daw un, my father has his dignity to fight for what he think is right. I keep telling myself to be not so attached to material things. It's just a money, just a plain paper. But admit it or not, money makes the world go round, isn't? Now, how could I resign... naunahan na ako ng tatay ko? hehehe :)I just told him he had his time, just enjoy and be happy. Because If I were in his shoes, I'll do the same. The difference is, can't live without vanity. Maatim mo bang humingi ng money sa parents mo for your 'luho' if you're working already diba?...di bale, we'll work this out - Pension, the apartment rentals, the remittance of ate, and my lousy intrega every payday.

Moral lesson? No problem is too heavy for one to handle. God gives that for a purpose. At my age, I've learned a lot from others' experiences. Learn to let go of the things that separate you from God. Think about it, money, work, BFs or GFs, beauty, treasured possessions, all possible things that you prioritize above Him...and if these things are to be taken away, don't get too depressed, its not the end of the world my dear. Damn, we're only given this one opportunity to learn the beauty of life. There's a better plan. Believe me, proven and tested...So don't get too attached on temporary things...konti lng...anything in excess is bad, right?.. Hay salamat, I could still spare something to gamble...hehehe...konti lng naman e.
...--wink ;p---

I have a very frustrating project this week. Calling on US radiologists to set up a call appointment. Damn, not only they are busy with a patient, the gatekeepers are so pakelamera. I understand, that's part of their responsibilities. But then, nakakairita cla. This was what transpired on my last call:

me: Hi! this is gen from pfizer. I would like to speak with the radiologist please.

Secretary: From what company again?

Me: I'm calling on behalf of pfizer.

secretary: the drug company?

me: yes.

---moment of silence---

secretary: uhmmm...could you spell it for me please?

me: ( im trying to control my laughter here) p-f-i-z-e-r, pfizer.

secretary: that's the spelling of pfizer?

me: (this time, I'm getting so irritated and impatient) yes. May I speak with the doctor pls?

secretary: The doctor is with a patient try calling back after an hour.


Ay sus!! To think secretary ka pa ng doctor.... natatawa lng ako sau...



My pets had a royal rumble....2 kittens and 1 cat against 2 dogs. I should have taken a video of them fighting for their lives, know what happened? 1 kitten ran, and my dog snow white" got scratches all over her face... That's why we love pets in the house because they entertain us. A lot of time they sleep beside each other then next thing you know they are running after each other.Minsan naman ung kalapati bigla na lng lalapit, either papatong sa ulo or manunuka ng kamay. weird animals....

I'm loving the songs fly away by nelly, excuses by jasmine trias, a little bit by 50 cent and cater to you by destiny's child.

Happy father's day to my beloved father. Love u pa!..and to all fathers out there same thing too...and to some who are fathers at nature but refused to be one..." magpakatatay ka, once and for all!"


It has been a family-spent weekend. There were lots of pains encountered during weekend but because I had the whole weekend with my family, it was well worth spending quality time. xxx would not know this because he was too occupied with his thing. By the time he realized the mess, things have worsened. I was at the peak of my anger and I've said so many things that had hurt the both of us. I know someday I'll regret this, I'll be in the losing end but things have happened uncontrollably. I can't do anything. To make the long story short, We ended the weekend saying farewells.

-monday-

Im so sad. It feels bad to have guilt, anger, and sadness at the same time. Did nothing the whole afternoon but to watch dvd. While pretending to be so attentive to the movie, someone came knocking at our gate. Damn, I ignored it. He knocked again, this time a little harder (may gigil kumbaga). My mom went out to see who the person is. It turned out to be someone from designer blooms delivering a bouquet of roses...from him. Don't know what I felt on that moment. There's this card attached to the flowers that reads:

"I will never go down without a fight
I will fight for this relationship.
Sorry for being like this." (what is there to apologize for?..being persistent? I should be thankful though)

" The greatest regrets in our lives are the risks we did not take. If you think something will make you happy, go for it. Remember that you pass this way only once"

ayyyyy...how sweet of him..hope he doesn't mind me putting his words here.
Okay, tell me now...I'm the culprit, right? but I have reasons for being mad yesterday. I've said so many things and I know he does not deserve that treatment. He doesn't deserve me at all. Self pity? nah... If u know us that well...you'll have the same sentiments. He's too good 4 me. Di nya alam un, and I want him to realize that. And when the time comes he realize things, that will be my most dreadful day. I don't know if I could handle it, I just don't want to be selfish. Relationships nga naman, and here I go again...so confused and depressed.

I miss blogging at the office...wahhh!!!I saw this headline in the yahoo page that reads >>> Blogging employees putting jobs at risk. Too bad can't read the article since any words related to blogs are blocked. I don't get to rant my everyday life...who cares? but damn...its already part of my system. Anyway, There's this girl who keeps calling our phone at home looking for me. She's even using my nickname that only my closefriends call me. The girl has nothing to say but, if I may quote, "p_t_ang _n _ m_ , wag kang mangaagaw ng hindi syo" ...like duh???? who the hell are you to just call our private number and talk like that? In the first place I'm not flirting with other girl's guy. Why should I? I am one of the few people who is very much contented with my present relationship. And its impossible if its relating to our ex that was almost 4 years ago, heller? Anu yun, ngayon lng nauntog ung girl at nagtatatalak? I'm sure that girl doesn't even know me that much because if she does she wouldn't have the nerve to call me. Whoever you are, get lost! Mura ka ng mura, hindi naman ako ang nkakasagot ng phone. All the while you thought it was me. Loser! In the end, cno ba ang sumamasama ang loob? As if namang may magagalaw sa balahibo ko kung ganyan ka makipagaway. Show yourself up, go tell me your name and the guy involved. Hay, matsempuhan ko lng call mo,...I assure you I'll have the last laugh.

Watched Mr and Mrs Smith and Madagascar this week....nothing much to say..they are not as good as what they seem in the trailers. Nice action though by brad and angelina, and god, aren't they sexy???wheww!!!

Had a great children's party last weekend...rap's 7th bday...it was fun watching all the kids danced so well. This was the time, I miss being a kid. You know, to party with prizes,to eat foods, and to laugh again like a kid...not minding anything at all but to eat, play and sleep. Too bad ate is not around to witness her son's 7th party but she'll be here on the first week of July...Time to enjoy all the lost time she should have been here. Like every birthday celebrations, christmas, weekend getaways, or even just the ordinary days. There are a lot of kalokohans and happenings to look forward to next month.

been so bitchy and nasty this week...

u can never guess why I don't go blogging week. All blogsites are blocked by the goddamn IT administrator. The hell with him, and his monkey-looking face, and his lousy clothes, and his so-called IT authority. First it was friendster, then myspace, then yahoo games, and now blog sites...ever known such a loser? I would be more than happy if all of our systems would go down even just for one day because of all his fucking firewalls and he'll go nuts and freak out.

Eric and I just had a fight for a crappy reason...very very worthless. I don't even know why we ever got into this. Yeah, just blame it all to me and my puerility. My mentality, my personality, my attitude, include every wrong thing about me. That's what u think of me, ayt? W-R-O-N-G is written all over my face. Can't understand you y u still lyk me..I'm nothing but a headache. I'm sure u'll soon get tired of complaining how wrong I am to you. If u r right then I'm wrong.This is me, I can't be any better.

There's this new employee here to whom I've never given warm welcome to. Not even a smile, a simple nod, or a single word. It's so unlikely of me to be so rude and nasty.I hate the feeling but what can I do, Im not in the mood to be friendly. Promise I'll make it up to him if i have 'topak' to be friendly again.Goodluck if that time comes before I get my ass from this work.For all he cares if I get so goddamn friendly or not to him. I'm sure he doesn't even give a damn. In short, lets just mind our own biz.

I know I'm bitchy and I can prove u that... RJ, officemate, even told me I'm totally different from what I look and project. Looks can be deceiving darlin'. I might go to hell, but God knows there is a good side of me that others can't see.

...had 4 hours of sleep.....


...woke up so early....


...yet Im one hour late for work....

...how come?...I dunno......

All I did last weekend were shop, play, and gamble. Nothing spectacular really happened except that my mom won 10k in slot machine and eric took home 9k (in 2 consecutive days) from baccarat. I did not win, but that's okay I got so many 'balato' from them..and now, Im stuck at work. Its like Im being paid to surf the internet for 8 hours a day...got nothing else to do that's why Im creating a journal again.
I found a new tambayan, 'marbles', the billiard hall in Las Pinas. There was this girl na sobrang galing maglaro. Ung hawak sa cue stick at mag asinta, angas!!! Kainggit! and then may dumating na couple...angas den, ung case ng cue stick, ung porma, may papunas punas pa ng cue stick b4 magsargo. From there, we assumed these 2 are another good players. ..nagbreak...wow, kalat ang mga balls at all sides of the table...most likely, the one making the shot would finish the game with no problems at all...sumablay...ayy..then ung kasama naman ung tumira...scratch..bad shot...hay sayang..ganda p naman ng case at cue stick. As old saying goes, don't judge the book by its cover. Im sure by the tym gumaling n ung 2, to the extreme na ang angas nila.Don't get me wrong na porket di cla kgalingan mag billiards e, wala n clang karapatan umangas.Ofcourse, kanya kanyang trip lng yan. Basta, they look so mayabang when they look at other people's shot. Eric was then insisting me to play against the super galing girl. Ofcourse, I didn't dare to kahet doubles pa at kakampi ko c eric n sobrang galing. Yup, Mahinang klase, pro naman i'm not playing as much as I played b4 at wala na tlaga ung kumpiyansa sa tira ko. In the end, kaming 2 n lng ang nagpustahan. Syempre partida ko, I was playing so well but then again no matter how good I am, lampaso p ren un as compared sa tira ni eric. I ended up losing 2 sets of game. One thing I learned from this game (as taught by Eric),winning is not everything. In challenges like this, losing is a great part of the game. You would know how to handle pressure, you'll not be browbeaten by someone else's kaangasan, and you'll be a good sport. People who hated losing and those thinking that winning is everything can end up spoiling a game for everyone else. Talk about all the games of the experts....Efren 'bata' Reyes experienced so many lost fights b4 reaching the top. yeah right...pampalubag loob!!!A loser is still a loser... hahaha..joke...Nice game, I'll do better next time. :)