Just after I ate my breakfast at 2pm, I went to sit down with my mom to watch the noontime show. She was then reading Philippine star. She handed me an article, asking me to read it aloud. I thought it was just some current issues and wanted to tackle about it. But then as I read the first line I blurted out loud..."Ayoko na...alam ko na to...Iiyak lng ako" Just before I finished the sentence tears went falling down my cheeks. I have always been hiding my tears in front of my mom because I might pass on the deppression on her. As much as possible, no crying in front of my mom with regards to a very sensitive issue...overcoming grief...lost of someone loved. I might as well share the whole poem so u know what I'm talking about.....

A lesson in grieving
- Susan Reyes-

Go ahead and cry, You have just lost someone very dear
Now life will never be the same
No longer there to talk to, laugh with, and simply be with
He is gone...so final...you feel empty
Ofcourse you are sadf and you want to cry

Go ahead and cry, because it is okay to allow
Yourself to feel what you feel
Your tears will cleanse the bitterness your soul feels
One day there will be room for light and grace

Go ahead and cry, be angry if you must.
Scream your pain to the world, shout and cry until you tire
Now, pray to for comfort and peace
Pray until you fall asleep

Go ahead and cry, it is nothing to be ashamed of.
Take pause. Let the tears flow
Should your chest feel tight
from the pain breathe slowly, deeply, feel your lungs with air
Like a mantra, repeat to yourself "this too shall pass."
I promise you, it does.

Go ahead and cry, you will find the pain eases with time,
your natural ally. Begin to remember the good times, the laughter
and the joy. You begin to heal, slowly, yes, but surely.
Then you start to feel him in your heart, alive, pulsating and vibrant.
This is now where he resides and belongs for eternity

so yes, it's all right, go ahead and cry.



I got to read the article when everybody eslse here was sleeping. Its just a simple poem anyway but for someone who just experienced a death of a loved one or a break up of relationship this would really matter. I'm glad I had the courage to finish up the poem because I learned something good here.... Its okay to cry, I should not be ashamed to show my emotions because time would let me realize the essence of learning to love and let go. I would be stronger, and let her live inside me...when that time comes I'll just have to smile and be happy.