There are just some people who can perfectly make me feel so worthless. They are making me hate myself because of life's imperfections. I despise it when people look down at me as if I can't be anywhere but here. The worst part is, I can't do anything to prove my worth. Its as good as saying...

"yeah, You're right. I'm not that good enough. I can't be that good like 'him' or 'her'. Satisfied?"

Hey wake up mi, where is the confidence you've been building up ever since?....I don't know, I just don't know what to feel and react. People close to me always have these ways of putting me down....This made me stop and think for awhile... where am I really going? As I can see now, this is just a cycle of my life. Work, rest, payday, splurge, save whatever is left, then work again, rest, payday again, splurge again, save again, and the cycle goes through again....damn! Where exactly am I heading for? I do have goals and ambitions but opportuniy just won't come in to my path. Someday, I can be someone but that seems to be very vague. How could I be that someone if life's like this...Maybe they are right.....I feel so down...need to talk to Jo...let's drink it up pare!!!


footnote: While doing this blog, Rachelle texted me this quote:

Whatever happens 2 ur day, just manage 2 smyl and relax :D U know, lyf isn't a problem 2 b solved but a gift 2 b enjoyed! Have a wonderful, blessed day!...


just when I needed it most, huh?